Hold Still

Hold Still❰Reading❯ ➷ Hold Still Author Nina LaCour – Oaklandjobs.co.uk In the wake of her best friend IngridAs suicide Caitlin is left alone struggling to find hope and answers When she finds the journal Ingrid left behind for her she begins a journey of understanding an In the wake of her best friend IngridAs suicide Caitlin is left alone struggling to find hope and answers When she finds the journal Ingrid left behind for her she begins a journey of understanding and broadening her horizons that leads her to new friendships and first love Nina LaCour brings the changing seasons of CaitlinAs first year without Ingrid to life with emotion honesty and captivating writing. ”You might be looking for reasons but there are no reasons” It was this simple line that made me realise that I not only liked but respected this bookOut of context it is an ambiguous awkwardly phrased sentence that makes my fingers itch to shove in some punctuation In context it’s one of the most powerful statements in the entire novel It’s a deeply insightful expression of understanding an extension of empathy distilled into one potent lineMental illness is not a choice And had this book set out to explain Ingrid’s death with a list of reasons it would have been doing not only Ingrid but others who experience mental illness a gross injustice invalidating the fact that depression is a diseaseFortunately Hold Still approaches the topics of mental illness and suicide with respect and honesty I have shared my thoughts previously on the subject of grief in fiction and I don’t hesitate to say that I find it an extremely polarising theme My response as a reader largely hinges on the manner in which it is presented – and when I perceive this to be at all gratuitous it tends to make me punchyBut Hold Still is not only a sensitive portrayal of grief but a beautifully written story about healing and hope There’s an articulate literary style to La Cour’s writing without sacrificing the authenticity of her teen narrator’s voice The story opens in Summer in the wake of Ingrid’s suicide and follows Caitlin through the year coming to terms with her best friend’s death and navigating life without her Ingrid leaves behind her journal for Caitlin to find and through its pages Caitlin must confront the reality of Ingrid’s illness and subseuent suicide In the process Caitlin gains greater insight into her friendship with Ingrid and the person Ingrid beyond Caitlin’s interactions with her I really appreciated La Cour’s integrity in writing her characters here – showing that their friendship was not perfect and that understanding this was fundamental to Caitlin being able to grieve and forgive Aside from Ingrid’s journal which forms part of the novel through handwritten notes and drawings Caitlin’s character development is facilitated through various relationships with other characters One of the greatest strengths of the novel in my opinion lies in La Cour’s crafting of these complex dynamics growing the connections in a manner that feels organic and fluid Caitlin’s parents her photography teacher Ingrid’s not so secret crush the new girl at school and persistent classmate Taylor all play a role in Caitlin’s internal journey It’s through these nuanced relationships that Caitlin begins to heal and move forward I enjoyed the role of photography in the story particularly as a means of expression for Caitlin as well as Ingrid and their teacher While the discussion of imagery in the novel occasionally felt a little didactic it effectively communicated Caitlin’s emotional state and played a pivotal role in her grief for Ingrid The building of the treehouse was a slightly less subtle motif for the themes of the novel but all the same it added an interesting dimension to the character of Caitlin and I’m all for contemporary YA protagonists who moonlight as carpenters However while this is Caitlin’s story it’s Ingrid that left the most profound impression on me In Ingrid La Cour has created a complex and very real character a girl of contrasts showing the world one side of her face and hiding the other away Ingrid’s pain and sadness are palpable in her letters yet I think the book did her justice in developing her as a character and not merely the inciting event for Caitlin’s journey Above all I admire the choices La Cour made in her depiction of Ingrid honest and unflinching while also according her the dignity of not being entirely defined by her suicide Hold Still is an impressive debut and the strength of La Cour’s writing complements the weight of the themes It’s a moving sad and ultimately hopeful story Recommended Cover Note On the subject of photography – the cover image is the work of UK based photographer Rosie Hardy “You might be looking for reasons but there are no reasons The sun stopped shining for me is all The whole story is I’m sad I’m sad all the time and the sadness is so heavy that I can’t get away from it” As my first Nina LaCour book I thoroughly enjoyed Hold Still Caitlin is left reeling after the suicide of her best friend Ingrid; when she discovers Ingrid’s secret diary she finds a way to be close to her again Through her diary she discovers a side of Ingrid she never knew full of secrets and pain Caitlin has to find her way through the darkness to discover to how live without her best friendTold with heart breaking honestly this book was a fascinating and realistic portrayal of teen suicide and what it is like for those left behind and how they can move on This includes family friends teachers – suicide affects so many lives and this book shows that in a heartfelt wayA uick read that flicks between Caitlin’s perspective and the diary entries from Ingrid’s I enjoyed this book and would recommend it “I imagine they are issues we share A pervasive feeling that something is missing Darkness Vacancy” How amazing it is to find someone who wants to hear about all the things that go on in your head You just think that things will stay the way they are You never look up in a moment that feels like every other moment of your life and think Soon this will be overCaitlin and Ingrid were best friends They were practically inseparable sharing a love of photography music laughing at themselves and others One night they were talking about their futures and the next morning Ingrid was dead having committed suicideIngrid's death shakes Caitlin at her very foundation Ingrid didn't leave a note but Caitlin realizes there were so many times where she should have said something to Ingrid when she noticed her erratic moods her cutting herself her crying jags Could she have saved her friend?When school resumes in the fall Caitlin has to navigate her way without Ingrid for the first time She's a jumble of emotions—anger loneliness guilt grief—and doesn't like being an object of curiosity to her classmates who want to know how Ingrid killed herself and whether she left a note Even their favorite photography teacher treats her like a pariahThen Caitlin finds Ingrid's journal under her bed where Ingrid presumably left it for her to find As she reads Ingrid's words she begins to understand clearly just how troubled her friend was how she struggled to find self worth tried to will the boy she liked to reciprocate her feelings and how she wanted Caitlin to understand what she was feeling but was afraid she'd treat her differently or worse not want to be friends with herMaybe there is no right thing to say Maybe the right thing is just a myth not really out there at allNina LaCour's exuisite emotional debut novel Hold Still chronicles Caitlin's first year of living without her best friend It is a year of trying to comprehend this loss wanting to lean on people yet not wanting to let anyone else in or be vulnerable and a year of understanding there was little that could have been done to prevent Ingrid's death It's a story about how to find the strength to move on to identify rays of hope again and realize that making new friends isn't betraying the memory of the one you lostThis book is also a tremendously candid look at the effects a suicide has on the lives of those left behind From parents to friends to teachers to crushes everyone is affected in some way and LaCour beautifully explores the range of emotions and actions that are caused by such a tragedy I expected this book to make me cry and it certainly did but it wasn't as maudlin as I feared it might be—it is powerful and immensely poignantI've been a fan of LaCour's writing since reading You Know Me Well a book she wrote with David Levithan a few years ago Last month I read We Are Okay and was again captivated by her tremendous storytelling ability She is a writer whose work you really need to read for its beauty and its emotional powerOn the off chance that someone reading this review is in crisis or having suicidal thoughts please know that there are people standing by to listen to you and help you Please call the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline at 800 273 8255 the Trevorlifeline for LGBT Youth at 866 488 7386 or if you are in the US you can text HOME to 741741 which will reach the Crisis Text LineSee all of my reviews at itseithersadnessoreuphoriablogspotcomCheck out my list of the best books I read in 2018 at You can follow me on Instagram at When I read Thirteen Reasons Why and complained about the believability of the story several people came up to me and said “Read Hold Still instead” It took me a few years but I never forgot about the book recommendation Finally here I am I’ve read the book and I gladly join the group of people who tell you to read Hold Still insteadWhereas Thirteen Reasons Why lacked in depth for me there’s plenty of it in Hold Still One evening Caitlin and Ingrid are talking about their futures and Ingrid says ”I’ll go wherever you go” The next day Ingrid is dead having committed suicide and leaves a devastated best friend behind This is where the book starts which is a really powerful beginning – it is a true portrayal of raw grief; it is sad and depressing; and it makes you feel as numb as Caitlin doesThe hardest but also the most interesting parts were when Caitlin read through Ingrid’s journal entries and we slowly get a feel of Ingrid’s struggle over the years of the way she was terrified of losing her mind of her depression and her hesitation to inform her friend about this Caitlin was or less clueless – she knew about the cutting and the depression to a certain extent But she didn’t know about the pills or Ingrid’s raw thoughts that resonated so deeply with me If only she’d confided in Caitlin maybe things would have worked out differently That’s probably the part that hurts the most“ You might be looking for reasons but there are no reasons The sun stopped shining for me is all”The first part of the book vividly shows the journey of a teenager as she deals with grief and suicide Caitlin’s actions feel numb and automatic she hides and pushes everyone away she leaves her parents baffled as they try to be there for their hurt daughter Slowly though we see a beginning change in Caitlin The overall tone of the book is sad but there’s also that notion that change can be beautiful and that’s where the beauty of the novel liesThis isn’t an exciting eventful tale; there’s not a lot going on Yet there’s so much happening although most of it is inside of Caitlin as she learns how to deal with the shock as she finds her best friend’s journal as she finds a new friend at school as she grows closer to the popular boy as she builds a tree house as she learns to find comfort in her photography There is tremendous growth in Caitlin as the story progresses which is beautiful to behold until eventually there is acceptanceThere’s only one point of issue for me and that’s that I wanted I wanted of Ingrid of her journal entries so I could get inside her head the way I was inside Caitlin’s Having said that it still felt incredibly real and what we got from Ingrid was believable and goodI’m not an expert on mental health books but I know this is a good one It’s poignant evocative and illustrious and does the subject justice Definitely a story that will linger I want to say that this book broke me—because in many many ways it is exactly what it did—but what it did much than that is made my heart lighter at peace and so much whole than it was before I read itBlog | Twitter | Instagram | Tumblr | Bloglovin’ “Maybe there is no right thing to say Maybe the right thing is just a myth not really out there at all”I don't need to tell you how much I loved We Are Okay and that You Know Me Well has a firm place in my heart Hold Still was a beautiful book too although it did not uite meet my expectations It's beautifully written and has many uotable lines It has that poetic sense of loneliness and sadness that Nina evokes so well through her writing It's a uiet but powerful book I also adored the illustrations in the book They're beautifully done and really add to the story And yet I think if I had read this book prior to We Are Okay I would have loved it a little I went into this book expecting a sapphic story hence I picked it as a ueer read for Pride Month While there is a lesbian side character the main character and everyone else is straight Granted it was a mistake on my side I could have simply read the blurb But when it comes to beautiful covers and authors that I love I usually don't care what the book is about I know I'll read it anyway And just because an author is ueer doesn't mean that all their stories have to be ueer tooThis book was first released in 2009 and while ueer YA was starting to become a thing LGBTIA stories are seen as difficult to sell which means that ueer authors didn't and still don't get to tell their stories in full ueer gloryAll that aside it didn't captivate me as much as her other books Yes I enjoyed it and yes I was moved and yes I definitely recommend it It's a close call but I opted for three stars rather than four because I don't think Hold Still left a long lasting impression on me and I know I won't be dying to reread it in the futureAlso tws for suicide and depression It's one of the book's main topics and there are very graphic scenes of self harm and suicide I can't believe that this new edition of the book comes without trigger warnings Seems very irresponsible to meFind of my books on Instagram this new cover is one of the most beautiful things i have ever laid eyes on what a masterpiece Book #1 for Summerathon Read a book while drinking your favorite summer drinkI really enjoyed Hold Still and managed to read it in less than a day because it was such a uick read However while I enjoyed it I also kind of thought it would move me a little Nonetheless I still highly recommend you check it outinstagram || my blog || twitter I love the cover pets book Isn't it just gorgeous? ; I think I had such a good feeling about this book for such a long period of time that I was bound to be disappointed in some way or the other Don't worry though It had some very redeemable ualitiesThe premiseCaitlin's best friend Ingrid committed suicide The thing is the two were pretty much inseparable Both were exceptional at photography and it was this talent of theirs which I enjoyed being explored in the novel Their passion towards taking on something they so loved the spur of the moment pictures they often took was just so wonderful and inspiring to me They didn't go out of their way to make friends Everyone knew to leave them alone But now that Ingrid is no longer with her apart from grieving she is left with this confusing shame and guilt with parents she does not want to let in with a teacher who was kind to them both all year around but now pretends she does not exist That's a whole lot to take on for a teen If I'm to talk about Caitlin herself? Well she's not very likeable I suppose She's often rude and insensitive but there's a lot of character growth towards the end so I couldn't hold a grudge Especially after all that she's been throughThere is the skater boy from her school though Taylor He's sweet and curious He gives her space but is always there to let her know that he's than willing to be there for her when she's ready to let him in He comes across as kind patient and understanding He is everything she needs now and in the near future But with all that's going on is that even possible?The writing is uite simple and the characters aren't the most developed out there But I do think the book gives you enough to at least keep you intrigued by a few of them Ms Delani Ingrid Dylan Henry were those characters for me HOLD STILL had some definite highlights for me And those would be the lovely illustrations and the diary entries When you read those entries it's actually creepy how real Ingrid seems to you How clear her voice rings through your ears And what's so damn sad about her is the sheer knowledge of knowing that she is dead Of knowing how sad and lost she is It's hard not to tear up Especially her last entry I just chocked up Yes I wasn't loving it during the first half but gradually I saw clear improvement during the second The emotional reaction I had to the book make me tear up and you've made an impression already and the last 30 pages or so that were just so fantastic were enough to add on that extra star and make up for the shaky beginningAnd hey am I the only one who is curious about Henry? Not many seem to mention him but I doubt he was acting so shifty throughout the book without reason Maybe I'm just over analysing here and there is no reason for his behavior but he just seems so sad Although it's only until a certain moment that it becomes clear that there's to him It wasn't until she sat with him on that fountain that a random thought occurred and yes this might be absurdview spoilerBut I thought for a second And it was a uick random thought I thought OHMYGOD he was in love with Ingrid hide spoiler My advice Listen to a really really sad Daughter song while reading the final 20 pages My heart feels like it's been shredded by a cheese grate rtc I need a moment to gather my thoughts and to know what I actually want to say instead of just writing a love letter to Nina LaCour in which I express how eternally grateful I am to have discovered her for myself Me Maybe I should read something happy for once My brain Here is another book about lossMe Yes why not

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  • Hardcover
  • 229 pages
  • Hold Still
  • Nina LaCour
  • English
  • 03 June 2016
  • 9780606149983